beautiful letdown (i stole this title)

i recently let a friend down. i said i'd do something, and then i backed out, because i'm a douche. even though i felt like it was the right thing to do.

it's not a big deal though, so don't freak out. it's not like i was asked to feed his dog and then decided not to while he was out of town.

but i did let that person down and i felt like total crap. i'll reiterate that it was the responsible thing to do...

but something peculiar happened:

he was understanding and forgiving.

i'll be honest, that surprised me. not because my friend isn't the understanding and forgiving type, because obviously he is. it surprised me because he had every right to be upset and to not like me, atleast for a little while. well, i guess i felt like he had a right to be upset. he didn't feel that way. i'm being redundant.

my friends remind me that people can be okay sometimes. i hope your friends do the same. i hope i do the same.


this life is full of little hints and allusions to God. if you believe that God created the world, that should make sense to you.
for example, H2O can exist in three different entities- liquid, gas, and solid. but water, vapors, and ice are all still H2O. God exists in three different entities, but all of them are still God (wrap yo mind around that!).

another example: ask any scientist and they will tell you that there is no such thing as "cold." "coldness" is just the abscence of heat. just like good and evil. evil is merely the abscence of goodness, or holiness, if you will. there is evil in this world because we lack perfect goodness/holiness, like there is in heaven.

and an example that is actually relevant to what i was talking about:
sometimes people forgive one another. even though they have a right not to. just like what God did. God offers us grace that we don't deserve (and cannot ever afford) through his Son, who is another part of the trinity (not the H2O one). when people forgive, they are showing a hint of the divine grace that is offered to all of us.