this post has A.D.D.

tomorrow will begin a one year countdown to the end of unjust insurance rates.
that is a horrible way of saying that my 24th birthday is tomorrow.
buy me that guitar i talked about last time.

here's the deal:
i'm gonna buy a guitar. not an expensive one. i guess i'll compromise until i become rich. after the axe, i am going to buy a car. not an expensive one.

why do you care? what does this have to do with you? not much.
but you can pray for me. pray that i don't lose my job and become unable to pay for things (AGAIN).

or if i do lose my job for some unforeseeable reason, pray that it is God's will, and that my needs will be met.

anyways, i read this a while ago:
"...Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk, or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving." that is Ephesians 5:4

unfortunately for me, i think 4 letter words can be hilarious when used, for lack of a better term, properly. now, i don't go around cussing at people. it's mostly when i lose at something. or stub my toe. or realize much too late that there is no toilet paper in the vicinity of where i am. i think it's just a way to release some frustration. and then when i look back on it, i can laugh about it.

random tangent:
when it comes to laughter, i'm inclined to agree with kurt vonnegut, who says laughter is a soul's way of coping with things. in some of his writings, he made jokes about being a prisoner of war. he also talked about jokes his friends made while they were taking cover in a building during the dresden bombings in WWII.

i've never dealt with anything that serious. but when i get in serious arguments, or if something terrible happens, i sometimes laugh a little. i think it's because i'm unable to do anything else. my girlfriend does not like this.
i also laughed when i broke my arm in 7th grade. i would have laughed when i broke my nose, but i was trying to keep all the blood off of my favorite shirt. which i laugh about now. the shirt was already red anyway.

back to the subject:
obscenity and coarse joking are out of place because they don't honor God. so when i lose at something, or stub my toe, or anything else, i need you to help me honor God. even if it makes me angry at you a little. i get angry when people hold me accountable. probably because i know they are right and i was being foolish.

if you bring me toilet paper, i will not be angry at you.